Before my lifestyle change, I only looked in the mirror when I really had to, and that was only to look at my face. I stayed clear of full-length mirrors.
When I finally decided to make a change I had to look at myself. I mean this figuratively and literally.
When I actually saw what I looked like to everyone else I was shocked, appalled, and scared.
My husband encouraged me to take pictures. Honestly, I really didn’t want to because I didn’t want to look at them.
As I began to lose weight I felt the difference in my clothes and even on the scale, but I still felt like my heavier self.
Somehow, I still saw the heavier me in the mirror.
I don’t understand how I went down three sizes and yet I still couldn’t see the results.
I couldn’t understand how I lost over a hundred pounds and I still felt and saw me at my highest.
It’s like my eyes couldn’t comprehend what my brain was trying to tell it.
I kept up with my daily routine in the hopes that one day I’d see what everyone around me was beginning to see.
One day I did a side by side photo comparison and something clicked. I began to see that I was actually making a difference.
I studied and analyzed the photos for days, even after I decided to share them on Instagram.
Taking the early photos really helped me to see that I was making progress and that I was losing fat and gaining muscle.
I still deal with this and this is why I take pictures regularly to document my journey. Anytime I feel discouraged I go back and look how far I’ve come.
If you’re suffering from this type or any form of body dysmorphia and you can’t find a silver lining of your own, it’s okay to get professional help.
This journey requires you to be mentally fit along with being physically fit. They both work together.
The first step is trying and the next step is not giving up when things get hard!
Keep going! If no one else believes in you know that I do. You’ve got this!
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